Friday, November 9, 2007

Watching Jack Sleep

It hasn't worn off yet. Sometimes I just like to watch Jack sleep. When he was really little, I was snapping pictures of him asleep all the time. It seems there's less time for that now. When he's asleep I don't want to risk waking him.Still I find myself staring at him with this sense of wonder. I study the way his little hands are balled up and the way his top lip sits so sweetly on the bottom. He looks so peaceful. It makes me feel peaceful too.
I've been feeling a little anxious lately with all the uncertainties with our home. It was hard to decide to move, but once we made the decision I was ready to get to it. (I can't tell you how many times I'm trying to find something only to remember I've packed it.) I was excited about Bob and I picking out a home together. Sell, sell, sell, is the bitter mantra I find myself chanting.
It's in those moments of bitterness that I try to remind myself that there are people in much worse situations.
My worries are actually about dreams deferred and that's not so bad. I'm learning to trust that God is in control of the time table.
Well, I had better go, Jack's taking a nap on our bed. I'd like to watch him a little bit more before I really get him ready to go to sleep for the night.


Lutz Family in OK said...

so sweet...there's just something about a mother watching her child sleep. When Mom came to visit, we woke up one morning to Mom standing over our bed watching me sleep. Weird.

Ok, that was a little joke...

For real, keep finding those peaceful moments in the midst of the stressful situation. God has good plans for you, and even though the waiting is hard...IT WILL BE WORTH IT. Praying for you daily...

Jack's Mom said...

You are so funny!

Debora said...

I was never cauht standing over a bed, but that's not to say that I didn't watch her sleep!

All of those little moments come back to you at the strangest times, and yes, there are times that your children will give you so much pleasure and peace. Enjoy what God has loaned you for a lifetime!